"Hi,
I found some things with your birth details that speak of a deeper you, an inner you that may relate to what you know about yourself or may not - in case of the latter it will link to many things present in your life and things you see or feel in them all, and do not consider finding a full stop to your undefined and incomplete sketch of self.
1) You have a very good understanding of social relations, the complexity and relative weights that rule social experience and have learnt to see that as an integral part of having a space for yourself in the world - you accept a lot because life has to be habitable. Nevertheless you do not completely agree with sticking to the norm but this is not something you would have articulated for yourself in life, i.e.outside of yourself.
2) You try and take this force of learnt stability or harmony versus the knowing that it is not all nor is it true (up till now) and put it in outward work or career - you let your status or social standing be a safe zone for reflecting to others what you really feel about society and it's norms of all kinds. You are an internal rebel in an outer representation role.
3) Your early development has involved a serious emphasis on controlling your drives and energy in relation to where society was then and what could not have been shared with it at that time - this is a reserve of energy that was consciously developed (related to possibly your father etc) and which guides you throughout your life to have the sharpest focus for it's use and the inner logic for being involved in your career.
4) Your own feelings on the social front have always been reflected in your mother and in her own experience of life. You were innately protective of her and in many ways she has been your child.
5) From the above points I want to go straight to your experience and inner placement with respect to your friend circle or peers or those you'd like to have had some counting influence on - you don't feel a genuine relation with any of them and the feeling of being an outsider remains as a mystery. You would remember how this might have started off on wealth, abundance, free availability of resources with them and not you when you were small and you would not have been concretely affected but the impression lasts; because it carries an information about your self and also your life. That information even now shapes and guides things. So you like to be a guide and an uplifting jovial presence to them all, almost making 'teaching' your method, your mask, and also a joy. Your teaching speaks to you too. But you hear a finer voice - both you and your connected peers are not what you really feel inside. There could be a longing to have another expression, a more encompassing explanation or 'song' to your life - that you would love to share when it happens on its own;for now you may not think you would ever want to give that to the world.
6) I find a possibility of two people as having crossed your life path leaving a mark - one is a spiritual religious teacher (not exactly guru) from where you have internalised to be loud in good beliefs and to share them with the world while knowing your purpose in it, and the other is a girl, a cause you may have understood or privately committed to - it's about believing in her worth, self-standing and being her champion in the face of her larger and long-running place in the forces of the world. This a quieter, more authentic part of your wisdom understanding. And this girl seems to be 'quiet' in her own way.
7) There is a good hold and first hand understanding of religion in society and social relations coming from how the two intersect, and a backdrop of learning from it and marking a cleaner protection zone against all such.
This is outwardly reflected in a more modern interest in non-religious and a more humane fulfilling open, liberal outlook. Devotion is not exactly an interest at this point but that's another story to come.
8) Spirituality for you though will come through if you respect the strands of religious development and social progress that have evolved over time and look for meanings - study them so to say - and make that your personal endeavour, different from how you do the same in front of others. I see that you have a gift for probing care-fully into social development and metaphysics (how philosophies were originally birthed). This may be far away from where you are today but with what you already think in your head (automatically), it's just one private step away from looking for the 'teachings' where the noise and the crudity have taken space. This will also then link to making travel for these sights of golden significance, like an archaeologist's field. You will find many clues here and also the real road away from all your friends and influence quarters.
Try and learn whatever you can about people in different vocations, examples in professional duty with empathy connecting things for you about how people serve. This will create less alienation, and empower you to better shape your dreams - they will become translatable into action. This will be meaningful to you.
9) There is some link between food and service (with noble intentions) that can be linked to your professional front. Something you are thinking of that sort or something that is already there.
10) When I mentioned self-control and protection I did not bring in the aspect of fear or a backdrop that inhibits or curtails action. Somewhere or the other there is a place like that in our lives. With you your empathetic, healing, benevolence-wishing nature is also a medicine, an antidote to parts in this space where things have been known, yet never known fully, in a way that they still continue (just inside). The mind is long liberated in it's clear alignment and choice but the being knows differently. The output is satisfactory, looks good but trembling still persists and conviction feels still something else - it could be something else that will be it, because this is not the whole voice, the whole joy.
The current time is ideal to look into this remote unlit area, to feel it, and commit to enlighen it. This year - all year round, there will be many opportunities to look at this from all angles and bring something to a close, so something more can progress.
It will be fruitful to undertake this kind of engagement or study in the next week lasting a few months. You may have glimmers of insights or connections. There will also then be a call to action, inner or outer but something in the hidden would be touched and acted upon.
11) As all of the above processes build up you will be filled with a new self-light of containment and understanding (the known and the previously unknown will both lose signficance for meaning). You will know the purpose, any pain would have left, and effort that never needed to be made will not even draw your energy.
A little note - if you have opportunities to invest in movie-related anything in any capacity it might show you a very different inner life. Otherwise, something looks like you'll be inclined to start seeing your own drive through life as if from the director's side of the screen, still experiencing the light show only from the inside!
A last preparatory clue - in the end there will be forms, God in forms and you will find yourself helpless by the doorstep of devotion. These forms hurt, and they haunt. Fear to devotion.
I was busy, then exhausted, and looking at your data to think on, I learnt by slowing down and remembering the bigger picture.
I kept my promise"
